The end

I can't believe my last post predicated the demise of my relationship.

I said that it's not fair to me, she said relationships are never fair.

I did what no driver could do, sent her to her doorstep.
She said Im not keen in going on a trip. I had long expressed interest when I knew I could end early for my internship.

She said that I could not fulfil her wants. I silently agree. I'm not the richest kid on the block.

Everything is in a mess, a blurry image, like the raindrops trickling down the glass pane. I've thought about it before, I've calculated for this day and it has arrived. Painful, extremely.

Nothing is certain and change is indeed the only constant.
I can't stomach the courage to look her in the eye. I knew she wasn't the same girl I met before. There's no point in asking for another chance or asking her back.

She says that she knows what she wants but true be told, I really doubt that.

Life goes on, the future awaits me.

Reality check

Im only a student with a $400 a month allowance. You're a earning a $2700 a month salary.
6.75 times difference.

Is this really the end of the road?

I have no where to vent my emotions. She's like a wall, an emotionless wall. or at least that's what she's trying to be.

I know that she's stubborn. She knows that. It's hard to change one's character.

I dare not say that I've tried my best but at this point in time, it's really quite useless. Whatever my actions or lack of it, it's just not helping.

I'm not about to give up, for now.

There are bad times but yet I remember all the happy moments. It's a process that every couple encounter. There's no such thing as a fairytale love romance.

16/05/09:

Had a great date with Vanessa. Watched the Red Bull X-Fighters show at The Singapore Flyer. Exhilarating show.
Sat The Singapore Flyer for only $10 each and we had the entire cabin to ourselves.

Vodka Choc Cake Day

Breakfast: Samyang Hot Mushroom Korean Noodles + Egg.
Lunch: Salad + Spicy Nachos



Dinner: Salad + Slice of Choc Cake



Today, I made my "speciality" chocolate cake for my girlfriend. Added Vodka which was okaayyy only. I need some nice rum to go with the sinful chocolate ganache.

My Last NSF Outfield, Atec.

Hi

I'll be going for my last NSF outfield and hopefully last outfield ever in my time as a soldier.

To think, this time last year, I was already out in the fields in Taiwan.

Lets hope I'll survive this Atec. All the best to me!

Yay!

I got my 23rd birthday present, which is also my first bottle of perfume, though it's technically an Eau de Toilette.


Ermenegildo Zegna Intenso

Described as the most sensual and virile Zegna fragrance to date, Zegna Intenso by Ermenegildo Zegna was introduced in 2007. The light side comes courtesy of fresh notes such as green mandarin and Italian lemon, offset by a touch of cardamom and pink peppercorns, while oriental notes of iris, vetiver, woods and musk represent the dark side. The bottle’s graphic lines create this striking opposition—between the solid black stripes on the outside and the silvery fragrance within, which highlights its inherently contrasted nature.

I love it! Thanks Vanessa!

Went down to Uniqlo with vnsa today and i bought a pair of jeans and received a shirt from vnsa.